Waves of Reality

As our family walks this path toward the mission field with eMi, I am finding that there are a lot of things that will have to change.  You may think that this is intuitively obvious.  I agree.  What I find interesting is that it seems that for each of these changes there are different stages of the experience, different waves of reality.

Matthew and I went to the High School open house last night where he will go to school next year, or will he?  We really don't know where we will be next fall when school starts.  We are generally OK with that, however, walking around the school last night was an experience for me of another wave of reality.  

My boss was in town from Portland this last week.  We talked about the transitions that are coming.  We met with one of my clients and let them know that changes were coming.  I have found the process of talking about and planning for the loss of my job to be a little disturbing.  I feel less in control than I did last week.  Again, it is another wave of reality.

I know that God has a plan for our lives, that He will see it through to fruition, that there is no shortage of money in his economy, that He is the giver of wisdom and knowledge, that He sustains and provides for us, however, waves of reality are continually breaking over me.

I have been drawn to Matthew 6:19-34 lately.  If you have been in the church for very long, I am sure you have read through this section.  For me, it speaks to how we can respond to those waves of reality.  When I boil down my struggles with the waves of reality they can pretty well be summarized by - 

‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’

Jesus responds - Your heavenly father knows that you need these things, Jon.  But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness.

I will continue to face the waves of reality that are still coming my way and I am sure that I will continue to be knocked back a couple steps each time one lands on my head, however, in between waves (an maybe someday through the waves) I will seek the kingdom of God and His righteousness.  I invite you to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness - "for tomorrow will be anxious for itself."